Vision, Desire and I AM...

I love this subject! What a beautiful, desire to have a vision of I AM. Now some of you might be thinking "HUH?" and you have every right to do this. This is so contrary to what we have been taught. When I hear this statement, "I can't, I don't, I won't, and many others...I think to myself, "YOU are right!". When we tell ourselves and I was guilty of this too, these beginning phrase of whatever it is we are correct. There are so many things in life stopping us from doing things we want to do. Why join them? Why degrade ourselves and limit our amazing abilities to heal, learn, etc. I want to share a couple of experiences I have had through out my life: The first is when I was a little girl. I started gaining wait around my parents divorce and I was called fat, heavy, obese, and a lot more unkind names. I was teased all through school. Then the second is I was separated from my class mates because of learning disabilities I once had. You see school was not a fun time for me. I was hurting and I didn't know why. Now, I am 35 years old and a lot wiser! I am wise, wonderful, and intelligent. I am smart, educated, and self-taught. How beautiful those small, but profound statements are. I AM has an amazing feel to it. The spiritual insight into those words when applied to me or you are amazing! I envision a different view of myself now...we all can. This is what I learned: Learning disabilities are not a set back. They are a refiner's fire. They are sharpening a tool and getting it ready for battle. As I look back on my days at school with no close friendships and feeling exiled from the human race. I felt dumb, stupid, unprepared, and lost. At the same time those school experiences were happening, I was hurting myself with food because of my unexpressed feelings of sadness, fright, and fear. These feelings only intensified and before I knew it I was saying hurtful things about myself. The inner bully came out with a hot iron stamping my forehead with the hurtful words burning them into my skin by mine own mouth. I was degrading myself before anyone else could and that way no one could hurt me by their stinging words. Wow! A lot has changed and I am no longer hurting myself in any of these ways. I am amazed at how a few words can impact your whole life! This past Friday, I was driving around dropping off Viva La Verde! foods. I am one of our amazing owners of a beautiful home or office weekly delivery service. As I was driving I was thinking about how I was hurting myself with hurt words.."you're fat!" etc...the feeling of hurt, sadness, and more hurtful things came into my mind. I immediately knew I did not want to feel that way, so this is what I did... "I AM loved." "I AM desired." "I AM a daughter of God." "I AM AMAZING!" Do you see the difference? Do you see and feel the change in text, wording and spirit of the phrase? I teared up and wept in gratitude for the blessing of knowing "I AM AMAZING!". I wanted to shout it from the roof tops, text everyone in the world, broadcast it over every radio station and so on. There is a grand message here. We can stop feeling or visualizing ourselves as less-thans...YOU and I ARE a son or daughter of GOD! WE have a divine connection to our Father in Heaven. Be grateful for what you have now...not what you don't have. Change the world by starting with yourself...that is how desire begins.